Intermezzo.

Long story short, when you visit a fertility clinic at some point they’ll (most likely) ask you to do HSG (Hysterosalpingogram) Test – if you haven’t done it before, to check if there is any blockage in your fallopian tubes. More about HSG on next post… 

So yeah, I browsed and browsed about it and so many people wrote they apparently fell pregnant after doing HSG. I somehow got my hopes up (despite the scary thoughts of the procedure itself) and decided to go with it anyway.

And then TWW came (Two-Weeks-Wait) came. I felt all these symptoms (you name it, I swear I could feel it – that’s the beauty of TWW): fatigue, dizziness, nausea, bloating, headache, backache and so on… The thought of “this time it could be it – since we did things differently, we did the so called HSG – it worked on so many people” surely came into my mind.

Then Bam… AF started saying hello by sending brown spotting and crappy feeling. Oh crap. (Note: I am currently on CD 27 today, AF is supposedly coming tomorrow) Then you just came back to reality! Reassuring yourself: it’s okay… we’ll try again next month, we’ll eat better, sleep better, exercise better… (Any of you could relate? LOL)

This probably my most boring and least informative post… haha. But anyway after cycle and cycle and cycle, I gotta think that TTC women are the most resilient. We might feel down at the very end of the cycle, but then always stand up to try once again. Don’t you think so? We are probably a lot stronger than we think we are!

🙂

Don’t Chicken Out Now!

Here comes the happiest time of the year… Chinese New Year! When you have to listen to that annoying “WHEN” questions by Aunties (sometimes Uncles) and at the same time you have to give money to their grandchildren (Angpao). It’s basically like paying for your own misery. @.@ (Note: I usually had dinner at husband’s late grandma’s house on the night before CNY, then again on the next morning, and finally lunch at my parents).

So, I made our first attempt of TTC in 2017 (in hopes of getting out of CNY torture). No, not pregnant yet. And yes, another BFN. This time as suggested by my doctors, I was taking 200mg Utrogestan (progesterone) and Cardiprin 100mg (baby dose Aspirin) right after we’re trying in order to avoid another early miscarriage (in case pregnancy happened this cycle). Symptoms I got? Super dry skin on face (it did happen to me both times I got pregnant), sometimes gassy (!) and no brown spots at all few days before scheduled AF came, which made me kinda hopeful *sigh*

On CD 28 when I supposed to have my period, I took HPT in the morning, got a BFN. And then AF came the next day (once I stopped taking Utrogestan). So I guessed it was probably the Utrogestan that caused a delayed period (?) and also dry face. Been searching on Internet regarding Utrogestan vs delayed period, but there were too many contradicting answers. For the Cardiprin, I did not think it cause any discomfort or side effects to me (I took both for around 2 weeks or so). I’ve been thinking that next cycle I would not taking any hormonal medicine, maybe just Aspirin.

Have a happy prosperous Lunar New Year! Praying that everyone on the same TTC journey would soon find their happiness (baby or not, just please stay happy and hopeful! 🙂 )

Gong xi gong xi!

Hollow Heart

I’ve been feeling this hollow heart since the first time I did sonogram with nothing found on my womb (except damn persistent follicle whatsoever). Hollow. So this hollow heart keeps longing and searching for something. And this hollow heart is also super fickly.

Indeed.

One day I could have the urging feeling to get a new pair of glasses. Bought it. Then the next day I felt it did not fit me at all. That my old glasses looked so much better on me. Then another day, I would make appointment with my former Obgyn in Singapore. Getting all upset when I did not receive immediate reply from the staff. Mentioning about my second miscarriage. Received appointment date. Booked all ticket and hotel for me and hubby. Then again the uncertainty strikes back. Do I really need to see another doctor? What if he suggesting another cycle of Clomid and Metformin or even IVF as an option? Would it be more confusing rather than just stay with one doctor’s opinion?

If only a pair of new glasses could fill my hollow heart. Things would get so much easier. I will try to live my life on day to day basis, because apparently the Two-Week-Wait has changed to Three-Month-Wait (if not longer – which I hope NOT!).

Note: Betta HcG test came back okay (it was 0.7 – as my obgyn suggested it should be below 5). I stopped taking Blackmores Conceive Well Gold, because I felt it cause some breakouts, so today I shifted back to Elevit. Just made a mental note to eat more spinach and salmon regularly to change the Omega 3 supplement, which was not provided by Elevit.