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Current Status: Back on TTC business! (after 2 cycles hiatus lol), been taking OPK (Ovulation Predictor Kits) since CD 9 (although the pamphlet said if you have 28 days cycle, you should start taking test on day 11 or 12 for 29 days cycle – better early than late rite?). CD 9 negative OPK (most likely, dumb me). CD 10 negative OPK (still). CD 11 negative OPK (started getting annoyed). CD 12 negative OPK (panicking). CD 13 positive OPK (thank God!). Today is CD 14, I think I am going to do another test this evening (yeah, the best time to take OPK is between 5 to 8 pm, unlike HPT) just to make sure. Vitamins? Neocell Collagen C (nothing to do with TTC to be honest, just dreaming of better skin – that’s all ;p), Blackmores Folate 500 mcg and Blackmores Natural E 250IU (Note: Pls consult with your doctor first before taking any vitamins during TTC!)
OK, I was not MIA. Only last April I got sudden invitation from our supplier for an incentive trip to London (It was such a blessing actually to be able to go there twice within a year *grateful smile*). The trip was on April 1st until 11th and I took the trip with my sis. So basically this was the reason I was taking TTC break for 2 cycles. We were visiting London (of course! *Primark I love you!*), Manchester, day trip to Liverpool, then coming back to Manchester again, Bibury (so pretty! Hoping I could go back here with hub – he’ll surely love the old village feel), Bourton on the Water (also quite nice, but a bit too much gift shops in my opinion), Oxford (stayed at old hotel called Macdonald Randolph – it was a bit like horror movie set with maze-like aisles *fun* lol), Bicester, then finally going back to London.
Because this was a group trip, of course we were most likely having our lunch and dinner together in a group table setting. I was quite anti-social TBH, so this felt a bit weird for the first few times (We already knew some of the people in the group, because we also went for a trip with them 3 or 4 years ago – but had not been in touch after that). But after a while, it got a little bit more comfortable and we started talking to each other. Somehow, we got talking about personal stuffs (which I usually hate a lot, ESP! when people start questioning about kids *rolling eyes*). But somehow, I did not understand, I felt perfectly FINE. Some older women in the group (they were sisters too, just like me and sis) were sharing their struggles for having babies too. One of them was actually waiting for 6 years, with two chemical pregnancies in between, before making decision for IVF (she happened to have one egg only, but miraculously managed to get pregnant and having a baby boy. Then, she was pregnant again (naturally!) and gave birth to a baby girl.
Her sister also shared stories that she was waiting for 9 years before finally having a baby. I felt these people (who apparently had been dealing with the same issues as mine) had the most conscience. You could tell from their response toward “how many kids do you have?” classic questions. When I answered them that I had not have any yet, they did not say much more (unlike other people who would act like expert and give hundreds suggestions). They were just giving me the “I understand” look and moved on. I wished I could be like them too – making people feel comfortable and understood. Just that. No questions or suggestions needed. Some other girls in the group were also sharing about relationship issues and their wait in finding Mr. Right. How she also felt uncomfortable and left out sometimes when her group of friends only talked about baby stuffs – I feel you :’)
It is just weird how sometimes we could be more open up to a ‘stranger’ right? I don’t know what it is. Maybe they have new different perspectives or less judgemental (?) Or maybe you don’t really care how they might feel about you, since you don’t get to see them again (or much?) Maybe it is like talking to a psychiatrist, but without hourly fees 🙂
‘Til next time, X.